haiz.. reading jinhui's report halfway, got bored.. haha.. so decide to post a blog for a while.. sorry gal, u noe ya report quite boring also la.. hee.. still dunno wat to ask u tmr also.. wait later i'll think again la.. =P wasted my day again.. nvr go lec but juz damn sianz at home.. no mood to do work leh.. how how how.. cannot continue like this leh.. i need to do something bout it.. but wat? sch life is so stressful.. so many things to do.. life is so sianz.. forgot when was e last time i went ktv or watch a movie.. it always seems like there's not enuff time but when i haf time at home to do my stuff, i juz no mood to do leh.. juz wan to slack but cannot la.. like now also, got time but i choose to blog.. haha.. sch life is so sianz but working life even worse.. WHY???
tt day my dear ask me wat i wan work as next time.. i said i dunno.. and i seriously dun.. he always say we're not young and shd start think of e future.. i did.. juz tt i dunno wat job i wan wat.. i juz hope to haf a stable job, good husband, nice family and a happy life.. i dun need tons of $$ for me to be a rich tai tai who plays mahjong everyday.. i dun need a 3 storey high mansion.. i juz wan a stable job wif enuff $$ so tt i won't starve to death.. a home so tt i no need sleep in e streets.. so can't i juz wait till when i going grad then see got who wan employ me then juz take e job? cos i noe i confirm won't like any job in e first place ba.. i dun even like this course.. wonder wat e hell am i doing in e course also.. haha..
let's see.. audit?? no.. cos i dun wan to work till e wee hours at nite and go ard spore to work at diff places.. and i dun wan go big 4 too.. not juz e audit.. but juz this feeling tt i won't like it there.. accounts?? possible.. maybe go back c k tang.. haha, but pay is pathetic there leh.. and dun tink they employing anymore.. but tink work accounts in dept stores is better than those in public accounting firms ba.. dunno how to explain, juz feel tt way.. tax?? i hating tax now leh.. dunno if i wan face it anymore.. but mummy always say it's good to work in iras.. banks?? everyone say it's good to work in banks.. and also cos of this, everyone wan to work there.. confirm hard to get a job there ba.. not saying tt i won't try la.. moe?? i dun mind teaching.. but in front of 40 kids.. erm, tink i won't wan to.. cannot handle so many kids at a shot one.. last time tuition centre juz a few i also going siao.. home tuition?? tt's wat my dear wan me to do.. stay at home and teach so tt won't get polluted by e world outside.. it's not a bad choice.. but e income is so unstable.. wat if 1 day no one believe in tuition anymore.. or no one wan home tuition anymore.. then how.. eat grass ah.. by tt time even if i wan go out work also nobody wan me.. continue study?? mummy wan me continue study.. say take some course on banking or financial management (tt's wat my uncle says).. but study ah.. where to find $$ to pay.. i still owing my sch fees now.. and my comp.. so many liabilities not paid yet.. haha..
so.. if ask me wat i wan in future.. i really dunno leh.. seems like none of e choices above are something i really wan.. and e main prob is i dun even haf any interest in any of e jobs tt i can get.. in e first place i dun tink there's any job i'll like ba.. act in this world, how many ppl actually like e job they haf.. many dun lor.. work for e sake of $$ only.. and all these recruitment talks now.. i really got no interest to go lor.. but seems like everyone is so enthu in going for all these.. will confirm a job meh? ya, will let u noe more bout e industry and e job.. i not interested in working wif them in e first place lor.. still wan waste my time go and listen.. haiz, tink e more i type e more i'm going round in circles.. like keep saying e same things hor..
all e proj and sch work driving me crazy liaoz.. starting to say nonsense liaoz.. haha.. things are nvr-ending one lor.. finish something then something else will appear.. even if finish exams also need rush fyp.. then my last sem will be here and after tt? WORK!! then nvr rest liaoz.. as my bro's nick says, we only haf 1 life so enjoy while u can.. but now i really dunno how i can enjoy my life..
argh.. i need get out of this.. i need to give myself hope in life.. cannot be demoralised.. I MUZ JIA YOU!!! I CAN DO IT!!! i wan to be happy.. to be happy like when i was a kid.. juz now watch e 530 show and this fellow said, life muz haf hopes and goals.. then life can be meaningful and happy.. so now.. i hope i can complete all my proj, tut and readings.. i hope me and my dear can pass all our exams.. i hope i won't get sick.. hmm, now wif these hopes, will my life be meaningful and happy? haha.. tink need achieve them first rite.. watever e case is.. i muz tell myself everyday tt i muz be happy.. happy tt i'm alive, i'm not sick, i have a home to stay, i haf enuff $$ to spend, i have sch to go to, i haf good gal frens and i haf a GREAT darling.. act i shd be contented hor.. heehee.. =)
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