hee.. i got a new blogger skin.. so cute rite.. haha.. cutie bunny.. so act cute rite, 21 liaoz so put cartoon.. haha.. but tink it's nice leh.. hee.. and e cursor is a cutie bunny also.. so nice.. feeling so lucky tt i happen to find this nice blogskin.. so hard to find u noe, e website got so many blog skins.. haha..
anyone watch e 530 show on channel 8?? it's act a repeat show la.. on guys and gals relationship.. complicating relationship which i believe will really happen in real life.. dun say i anyhow tink again k k.. juz how i tink bout e show la.. anyway back to e show.. it's basically on 2 guys and 4 gals.. it's not juz a san jiao guan xi.. it's a many jiao guan xi.. haha.. hmm, i shall attempt to describe this complicating story..
let's put A and B as e 2 guys and W, X, Y and Z as e gals ba.. A and W are a couple married for many years and haf a son.. but A has been having an affair wif X for 7 years during his marriage.. and they haf a daughter.. best rite, dunno how X can tahan being underground wife for so long and haf a kid wif A.. anyway after struggling for so many yrs, A decide to divorce wif W but as u noe, in a show, W won't let go so easily one rite.. so she got a bit siao and wan to keep her son wif her and a fight started bet them for e son..
on e other hand, B and Y are a married couple wif 2 kids.. happily married and Y has always been seen as very xing fu.. X, Y and Z are good frens since sec sch and open a beauty salon together.. but now cos Y is a housewife so B took over and is colleagues wif X and Z..
Z had always has a crush on A but knowingly tt A only loves X, she had not taken any actions.. one fine day, on a business trip, she met A again and decide to confess to him.. but of cos, A nvr accept Z la.. so she got damn upset.. then i sort of missed a few episodes.. haha.. anyway, Z got upset and drunk one day and went to bed wif B.. her good fren's husband lor.. though she regret after tt and decide to stay away from B, she found out tt she's pregnant.. well, in a show, ppl always get pregnant easily, like strike lottery siah.. haha..
now show till here only la.. but according to wat i rem from last time hor.. Y found out bout B's affair wif Z and was damn angry then of cos left B and no longer frens wif Z la.. so sad rite.. juz when she thot she was e most xing fu person and she found out her husband haf an affair wif her best fren.. okie it's juz a show, but sometimes it can be a reflection of reality.. such things really happen u noe..
this reminds me of this book tt i saw e other day wif xinyi at borders.. this book is quite cute, where ppl write in their prob then e author will reply in a very funny way.. then we happen to flip to this story which i rem.. haha.. it's on this gal writing in saying her bf went to bed wif his ex wife.. forgot how she noe bout it.. anyway, e guy say it was juz an act of folly and ask e gal to forgive him la.. e response by e author was tt it takes more than juz taking off your clothes to go to bed wif a person.. u'll need to do a lot of other stuff.. like... erm, no need me describe rite.. haha.. then he juz ask e gal to dump e guy and not believe him la.. and xinyi agrees also.. come to tink bout it, it's true rite.. u can't juz say u go to bed cos u see e gal very upset or depressed and wan to console her ba.. or juz suddenly cannot control and did it.. u dun juz cannot control and take out ur clothes to sleep wif her ba.. dun sound tt logical to me.. but i tink ppl are always able to find all sorts of excuses for something they wan to do..
so i tink sometimes to prevent hurting urself, maybe woman shd not be so smart.. smart woman tends to be able to find out a lot of things, esp things they dun wan or nvr wan to noe.. and being snart, once u noe bout e thing, u'll believe tt u can live by urself and dump e guy.. actually tt's wat a lot of books or magazines teach rite, be smart and get a life of ur own.. but seriously, how many smart woman are there?? and are they really happy?? maybe most end up living alone for e rest of their lives cos they juz can't trust their other half ba.. but stupid woman doesn't mean they are happy also ba.. getting cheated by ur spouse is not a happy thing also rite.. maybe u'll be happy cos u dunno bout it..
er.. tink i start to tok nonsense again.. hahaha.. sort of dunno wat i trying to say liaoz.. better stop b4 i tok too much rubbish.. hee..
haiz.. reading jinhui's report halfway, got bored.. haha.. so decide to post a blog for a while.. sorry gal, u noe ya report quite boring also la.. hee.. still dunno wat to ask u tmr also.. wait later i'll think again la.. =P wasted my day again.. nvr go lec but juz damn sianz at home.. no mood to do work leh.. how how how.. cannot continue like this leh.. i need to do something bout it.. but wat? sch life is so stressful.. so many things to do.. life is so sianz.. forgot when was e last time i went ktv or watch a movie.. it always seems like there's not enuff time but when i haf time at home to do my stuff, i juz no mood to do leh.. juz wan to slack but cannot la.. like now also, got time but i choose to blog.. haha.. sch life is so sianz but working life even worse.. WHY???
tt day my dear ask me wat i wan work as next time.. i said i dunno.. and i seriously dun.. he always say we're not young and shd start think of e future.. i did.. juz tt i dunno wat job i wan wat.. i juz hope to haf a stable job, good husband, nice family and a happy life.. i dun need tons of $$ for me to be a rich tai tai who plays mahjong everyday.. i dun need a 3 storey high mansion.. i juz wan a stable job wif enuff $$ so tt i won't starve to death.. a home so tt i no need sleep in e streets.. so can't i juz wait till when i going grad then see got who wan employ me then juz take e job? cos i noe i confirm won't like any job in e first place ba.. i dun even like this course.. wonder wat e hell am i doing in e course also.. haha..
let's see.. audit?? no.. cos i dun wan to work till e wee hours at nite and go ard spore to work at diff places.. and i dun wan go big 4 too.. not juz e audit.. but juz this feeling tt i won't like it there.. accounts?? possible.. maybe go back c k tang.. haha, but pay is pathetic there leh.. and dun tink they employing anymore.. but tink work accounts in dept stores is better than those in public accounting firms ba.. dunno how to explain, juz feel tt way.. tax?? i hating tax now leh.. dunno if i wan face it anymore.. but mummy always say it's good to work in iras.. banks?? everyone say it's good to work in banks.. and also cos of this, everyone wan to work there.. confirm hard to get a job there ba.. not saying tt i won't try la.. moe?? i dun mind teaching.. but in front of 40 kids.. erm, tink i won't wan to.. cannot handle so many kids at a shot one.. last time tuition centre juz a few i also going siao.. home tuition?? tt's wat my dear wan me to do.. stay at home and teach so tt won't get polluted by e world outside.. it's not a bad choice.. but e income is so unstable.. wat if 1 day no one believe in tuition anymore.. or no one wan home tuition anymore.. then how.. eat grass ah.. by tt time even if i wan go out work also nobody wan me.. continue study?? mummy wan me continue study.. say take some course on banking or financial management (tt's wat my uncle says).. but study ah.. where to find $$ to pay.. i still owing my sch fees now.. and my comp.. so many liabilities not paid yet.. haha..
so.. if ask me wat i wan in future.. i really dunno leh.. seems like none of e choices above are something i really wan.. and e main prob is i dun even haf any interest in any of e jobs tt i can get.. in e first place i dun tink there's any job i'll like ba.. act in this world, how many ppl actually like e job they haf.. many dun lor.. work for e sake of $$ only.. and all these recruitment talks now.. i really got no interest to go lor.. but seems like everyone is so enthu in going for all these.. will confirm a job meh? ya, will let u noe more bout e industry and e job.. i not interested in working wif them in e first place lor.. still wan waste my time go and listen.. haiz, tink e more i type e more i'm going round in circles.. like keep saying e same things hor..
all e proj and sch work driving me crazy liaoz.. starting to say nonsense liaoz.. haha.. things are nvr-ending one lor.. finish something then something else will appear.. even if finish exams also need rush fyp.. then my last sem will be here and after tt? WORK!! then nvr rest liaoz.. as my bro's nick says, we only haf 1 life so enjoy while u can.. but now i really dunno how i can enjoy my life..
argh.. i need get out of this.. i need to give myself hope in life.. cannot be demoralised.. I MUZ JIA YOU!!! I CAN DO IT!!! i wan to be happy.. to be happy like when i was a kid.. juz now watch e 530 show and this fellow said, life muz haf hopes and goals.. then life can be meaningful and happy.. so now.. i hope i can complete all my proj, tut and readings.. i hope me and my dear can pass all our exams.. i hope i won't get sick.. hmm, now wif these hopes, will my life be meaningful and happy? haha.. tink need achieve them first rite.. watever e case is.. i muz tell myself everyday tt i muz be happy.. happy tt i'm alive, i'm not sick, i have a home to stay, i haf enuff $$ to spend, i have sch to go to, i haf good gal frens and i haf a GREAT darling.. act i shd be contented hor.. heehee.. =)
haha.. been a long time since i last post.. as reminded by jinhui, maybe i shd post something ah.. nearly 1 mth nvr post liaoz.. budden hor, also not much ppl read it la.. so does it matter? haha.. well, where shd i start.. so long nvr write also dunno where to start update.. hmm, maybe start wif wat i doing juz now..
my darling's birthday is coming!! haha.. so as suggested by xinyi, booking a nite at a nice hotel is good.. actually thot of sentosa but ex leh.. then like not worth it.. food ex also.. then juz now came upon marina mandarin hotel, not bad leh.. location, price plus room.. can consider.. shall tink bout it a few more days.. juz hope my dear won't end up dun wan go again la.. dun waste my efforts again.. haiz.. i need a good good plan.. how how how.. which one shd i choose ah.. maybe shd look for one wif good buffet..haha..
sch work is piling up!!! i got like so much work to do and no time!! er.. act also i sianz to do la.. haha.. like juz now got time but i choose to check out e hotels.. hee.. but still sianz la.. spent my whole day doing 1 tut only.. so hard to do.. and tt was last week's tut.. haha.. next week one haven't start.. how how.. no time la.. now only half e projs down.. still got 2 more for this week and my fyp!! starting to hate my fyp.. so hard to do.. so many stuff to read.. she tink we so li hai meh.. how to finish chp 3 b4 exams.. and my exams is coming!! o my.. so many readings to catch up.. when can i haf a break??? i wan go holiday!!! my dear promise will go holiday wif me after exams.. but where to go leh?? not much $$ for me to spend also la.. where is cheap and fun?? haha.. sound so cheapo..
and i need to learn to be trusting!! like jinhui say, trust is important in a relationship.. i need to trust my dear more.. but it's hard u noe.. it's like he keep getting sms from gals.. or shd i say he is e one who sms ppl most of e time.. but he tell me they r juz frens.. juz sms only and nothing la.. he only wan to be wif me.. he ask me wat can he do to assure me.. i also dunno leh.. wat can i make him do?? stop sms ppl?? like so ba dao leh.. it's not like he do anything to dui bu qi wo.. haiz.. i also dunno.. juz haf to make myself learn to trust him la.. tt needs time..
speaking of time.. i shd stop complaining and go do work liaoz.. haha..
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