hai.. wat shd i do tmr? he's going out wif her.. he promise me won't see her anymore one.. once again, he nvr keep his promise.. but wat to do.. cannot force him dun go rite, force also same la.. he noe i won't be happy if i noe he going out wif her, but he still go.. shd i be at least happy tt he tell me and not lie to me? but he noe i'll be not happy but he still arrange to go out wif her.. so wat does tt mean.. he told me e impt thing is tt he wan to be wif me forever.. so am i suppose to juz let him go out wif her everytime? does tt mean his promises are not worthy? still rem he promise will nvr see her again.. i noe tt is not possible, but i still stupid stupid made him agree, knowing tt he'll break e promise one day.. dumb rite..
he say will come find me tmr after meeting her and i made him come b4 11.30.. wat if he dun appear? shd i really juz go out and disappear like wat i said to him? or shd i juz go while he's out wif her? at least i won't feel so sian at home ba.. wat shd i do.. argh.. y muz this happen.. i noe tmr is their anniversary, but isn't it over? thot it shd be over long time ago wat.. y muz something happen when i always thot things are over.. so things are nvr over rite.. or it will nvr be over? i dunno how long i can last.. xinyi always say i li hai, can tahan so long.. but no matter how long i can take, there muz be a limit rite.. i dunno where e limit is.. how.. i need find something to do tmr.. i dun wan to stay at home and think of him.. i need do something~~
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